|In younger, happier times.....|
Allan often said that we had a better divorce than some people had marriages! I don't think it took either of us long to realize that we had too many good memories that would be wasted if we couldn't continue to share them with each other. Whenever we were together, there were some sad and melancholic moments, but they were usually far outnumbered by wonderful memories and good laughs.
As I look around the room (and the whole house!), I am reminded of places visited together and wonderful experiences shared. One of my favorite memories was our trip to Goa at Christmastime, which started with a 19 hour delay in the Bombay domestic airport due to an airline strike. You can imagine how that went over! Well, it was all made right when we got to the beautiful Fort Aguada Hotel and were given a little cottage on the hill above the hotel It was wonderful! Every evening around 7, the breeze would come up and we would listen to the palm fronds rustling as we walked down to dinner. On our first night having dinner out by the pool, the hotel Santa over-imbibed and was fired. For the next few days, the hotel was frantically looking for a new Santa, when someone approached Allan. He was reticent but yielded to persuasion and bribery. So, on Christmas day here comes Santa/Allan cruising through the palm trees on a motorized sleigh to deliver gifts to the kids. It was wonderful and, with the exception of an older kid who blew his cover, we both enjoyed a Christmas that won't be forgotten. Each trip seemed to have at least one good story, mostly due to Allan's outgoing, gregarious nature.
He was here last August. My mother was with me and well into her dementia. He offered to stay at a hotel, but I suggested we play it by ear. He stayed in a hotel the first night and then came here. He was gentle and caring with my mother.....and very supportive of me, which I will always treasure. Since then, he would listen to my sage/woes and say, "Sweetheart, you know you're going to have to do something." I would agree, assure him that I knew that, but it would have to be as i was able to do it.
It never dawned on me that might be the last time I would see him. If anything, I thought he would settle into retirement and we might see each other more frequently, but I guess that's what makes this such a shock. That, and the knowledge that I've lost someone who will leave a huge void in my life. That void is shared by his father, whom he loved dearly, his sisters Margaret and Jean, and their families, and his friends. To you all I send my deepest condolences. I keep telling myself that Allan is at peace. He has laid down the struggles and pain of this world and is at peace. I hope that thought and the fond memories we have of him will comfort us all in time.
Allan will be remembered for his joie de vivre
and generosity of spirit to those he loved.